someone called me glue today

[Old entry i wrote but didn’t post.. I have so many of these! I don’t even know how long ago this was. Maybe a year. Anyhow, on with the blog…]

it was so sweet to hear.

i know sometimes im so into myself its destructive and then other times i am so against myself its ego-centric. i mean lets all say it together, “i have problems”. this is nothing new…

but today i was called glue.

I woke up smiling this morning. i was more happy than a jay bird is naked. it was for no reason, i was simply full of laughter and gaiety, the way i wish i could be at all times.

and then we had what felt to me like “family time” at the office. And Jon Germer called me glue. He said there’s a reason i am where i am.. that theres a bigger purpose for me here than just my job description. he said just being who i am, and being where i’m at, was important, even though i dont think i am important. not for pride, he said, but for confidence.

its so interesting to receive a word when you feel joyful. joy really is so much strength… i could have heard that word on a rough day when my soul was downtrodden and it may have lifted my spirits or made me weep, but i would have been so emotional about it im not sure id believe it once i was stable again.